i am not who i wish to be...

i just dont feel like doing anything today..=[

Feeling down in the drain today..
i don't know why.. regular mood swings are back.
today, dont feel like talking much.. but i feel guilty not talking oso... so sorry mum and dad
whenever they ask me or tell me anything, i dun seem to be in the conversation
i kept on saying 'har?', 'what ar?'... or i just repeat wat they said... without knowing wat they say.. haha
this is a very bad feeling today.. and i feel like listening to oldist or classical music ryte now.
listened to some just now on the radio...
however, today, my house is the noisiest house in my garden.
there are people who come and wash and clean the external part of my house today.
clean the dead plants, the weeds and the mouldy walls! that is great huh?
;p
they even cut the grass... at the back of my house! yay!good good.
now my garden is as clean as the lakegardens.. lol!

and guess what! not long ago, my dad make a shield for one part of my house which has a open roof. so, as u all know, this few days were so windy... and everynight we heard this sound from that roof when the strong wind blows...
thn ryte, just now, my neighbour showed us along long piece of plastic-like rectangular thing and asked us whether is it ours... OBVIOUSLY YES LA! hahaha...
omg... the roof really blow of from the top...
luckilly no one is not hurt.. it must have blown off during the night when the wind was really strong.
fortunately, the man came to fixed it just now itself. =) phew!

the title of today's post is one of the reason why i am feeling down today.
i am not what i wish to be
will i ever be what i want to be.?
as in do the things i enjoy and just be myself?
not being akward in any circumstances..?
accept changes although i am not fond of changes?
learning to let go of things i know i'll never have?
just let go...
im sorry for im being emo.. lolx

wow....

don't forget to observe the sky when the night is clear! ;p

i love gazing at the stars...it is just so beautiful and mysterious.
wish i can just lie down on the ground and gaze at the twinkling stars..
my parents will think im crazy id i even did that! aihs...
i wana lie down and gaze at twinkling stars! ;p
dreams....

cheerio! ^^

Activities i did

Last night, 18th January 2009 at 6.30pm. went for my dad's company annual dinner at a restaurant , Lucky Palace. As we all know, the typical malaysian attitude will be like ryte?? hehehe.. it says starts at 6.30pm, but after all the hassling and bustling getting the lucky draw prizes set up, and waiting for more ppl to come, it was already 7.15pm, when the dinner started..

here are some pictures taken throughout the dinner. =)

the prizes for the lucky draw.=)

prize giving for the lucky draw from the Mr Tan(right)

lucky draw by Mrs Tan(left)

Some karaoke session was conducted by Mr Alfred(above) and some other talented employee.
=)

A boost to harder for the new year of the Ox from the manager of the company,Mr Tan.

a karaoke session in tamil?! well, everyone still enjoyed it though they have no idea about the song... ;) Thank you Mr Baskaran!~

the couple of the night?! woot~
Mrs Tan showing her support to Mr Tan during karaoke session. =))
so sweet! =p

YAAAAmmmmmmmm Seeeeeeeng! yay!


lucky me!! introducing my lucky draw prize.........MissElegant! heehee...=p
no.1004. i din expect to get any prize..
my work as a photographer that night paid off.. at least. haha =)

so, what do u guys think huh? sorry lor.. some picture not so clear.. don't u think so? yeah?
um.. maybe i din adjust properly.. next time will do better. =))

today, 19th january 2009..

was awaken by the door bell at 8 am... it was the painter.
why so early la?? but i was kinda freak out by the door bell... why? because,
i was in a rhythmic sleep and suddenly got this door bell, of course i jump out of bed la...
so, in a blur blur state, i went down ...
i also have no idea why did i do tht.. i should have just let my dad open it... aish.
face oso havent wash face , hair still messy... wana scare the uncle meh..... lolz!
aish.. wat to do.. already open door so just continue lo.
so afta tht, went back to sleep for while... =)

it seems that dad wana do some touch up on the house wall, CHINESE NEW YEAR is around the corner !!!
so yeah... thatz the reason.
did some cleaning at the lawn and in the house and online.

at night, go for dinner and went to buy some stuff at THE STORE. nearer to my home. ^^

so i guess this is all for today...
and ya, tonite is really windy.. while im writting this sentence.. the sound of the wind from outside make me wana snuggle into my bed and sleep. =)

cheerio.

On the second day of holiday.

planned to wake up at 715 am today for some morning walk, but fell back to my cosy bed again .
was feeling so sleepy until my eye bags are popping out.
wat was i suppose to do.. slept at 2 am.
when i woke up at 9.30, got a morning lecture from the man of the house... about sleeping so late and the normal stuff he use to lecture me about
heehee... wat to do, it is normal for me already.. however i will try to avoid these session whenever i can.
so, the usual routine in the morning is breakfast. Went out to eat mee as usual.
the day is windy.. i wonder why.
these dew days is always very , ans i mean VERY windy.. the branches from the mango tree behind my house also fell a few pieces already. this sure make my dog, Bell very happy,as he had got a new spot to mark as his territory if u get wat i mean.
when we came back, sis msg mum saying she sent us the pics we took while she was back for holiday. here are some of it..


so i will end my post here. till the next post! ^^
cheerio.

another sem gone...

whoa! finish the last test which is econs today at 4.30 pm.
now can start to blog again. yay!!
so ppl... be prepared for the comeback of miss Lee Ni Tan!!! lolz
so i will start off with a simple tagged from my fren.... Anna! =]]

Bold the statements that are true;
Italicize the statements you wish were true;
Leave the fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the tag.

I’m 170cm + tall.
I don’t know what I want at the moment.
I’m not happy.
I hate my friends.
I hate my life.
I hate my grades.
He drives.
I’m bored of driving.
I go clubbing every week.
Shopping is bullshit.
I have a tattoo of a star.
I got my navel pierced.
I have friends that take drugs.
90% of my friends smoke.
I have a business running.
I hate cartoons.
I hate someone.
I have 10 handbags.
I buy PLAYBOY/PLAYGIRL every month.
My school mates know about my blog.
I wanted to be a fashion designer.
Wanted, past-tense.
I love emo rock bands.
I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.
I’m a rebel.
I started wearing dresses.
High school's filled with drama.
My parents have faith in me.
Maybe a little too much faith.
I’ve bought shoes this month.
I hate sports.
I heart Italian food.
I hate meeting new people.
I hate nail polish.
The mother bear gives me hugs.
People should start appreciating me.
High school was the worst time of my life.
I have cool hair.
One Utama is my second home.
I’m a guy.
I’m scared of my Biology exam.
I hate vacations.
We’ll last.
I believe in long distance relationships.
I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.
I’ve robbed an old lady.
I was stupid.
At times I think I still am a stupid.
I hate surprise parties.I hate planning parties.
I’m a sinner.
I have a Wii.
I can't live without music.
Video games are a waste of time.
I miss the father bear.
I love being in love.
I know how to cook.
I have 100% freedom.
I hate Math. DEM RIGHT I HATE MATHS
I love horror films.
I’m happy with what I have.
I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.
My old friends keep in touch with me.
I don’t read newspapers.
The news is such a waste of time.
Blogging is a waste of time.
I hate animals.
I can’t live without make-up.
I curse like a pirate.
I’m happy with my 11 year old car.
I hate people that are smart.
I love Apple Juice.
I can’t drink for nuts.
I believe that everyone in their teens have lost their virginity.
I’ve got a new phone.
I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.
I love clubbing.
I haven’t worked out since March.
I love my friends and family.
I'm hot.
What can I say? I'm sexy.

I stab:
Cheryl
Stephanie
Zhi yuen
Marcus
Shin yii

pls BEAR with me.

heyo thr! i will update my blog as soon as my real holiday starts . okok?
sorry folks!
am kinda busy nowadays to do anything... =[