The Art of Common Sense

sometimes i do things without thinking, sometimes i think too much. sometimes i don't know what had gotten into me. i just follow others without using my head to think and common sense. and even when i know the answer to think, sometimes i don't say it or din even have a thought to say it out to tell others. i don't know y.
yesterday i went to play basketball with my friends. i wasn't good at it because i don't play basketball. but i was eager to try it. so i went play with them. they were good.. i can tell u.
it was fun. great start to a healthy uni life??! well, we played about an hour and everyone was already exhausted. we went morning walk this morning. one of my friend is good in jogging so she jogged.
last night i also sms-ed a close friend of mine and we chatted for quite sometime. my idol!!!
so nice!! ^^
i must learn to do things on my own rather than depending on others. coz i am used to depending on my friends and family last years. now, everyone here is doing things on their own and sometimes only will have study groups and discuss group work. i don't have the feeling like i used to have during highschool. like there is a feeling of insecurity.... maybe coz ... i dont know.
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my friend said it is actually hard to be postive all the time. and she advice me to don't try so hard to be postive.so she said, ' just face the problems or things that come in a postitive way!' ^^ Thanks buddy!!~ my idol!

cheerio!!

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Do you believe in love at first sight?
well, i don't think so. i think that love at first sight won't last. it is just for some people who is very desperate to have a bf/gf. is crush at first sight counted?

2. Do you eat without brushing your teeth?
yup. i eat most of the time. so u don't expect me to brush my teeth EVERYTIME!! my teeth will get thinner and thinner.it's true!

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Dong bang shin ki concert!

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
i want to make malaysia free of stray dogs/cats .

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yup. if there is slightly sunshine after raining?

6. Do you like being who you are today?
nope. i m too lonely today. no one wait for me after classes and i feel lost. *sobs* i am just quiet today..... T T

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
i had thought about this question before. but i really not sure. maybe i'll just keep it. or get a countryside house with a large farm? or give some to my parents.

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
i don't know. depends on the situation

9. Would you swim in a vat of chocolate?
hmm.. i duwana get my self sticky all over ...

10. Do you wear boxers?
of course.....
NOT!

11. Which type of cars I love the most?
Auto cars

12. Which do you prefer from your other half ? Hug ? Or a kiss ?
a warm hug when im down will be great!

13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
i think i rather them to tell me. im scare it will hurt... but itz better than assuming what others thinks coz it is really tiring.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Most important??? Happy, healthy life surrounded by happy, healthy people doing very happy, healthy things in a very happy, healthy environment...
-[endif]-->15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
nope. i hate choosing and shopping.

16. What kind of electronic device/gadget you own that you like most?
my lecturer said electronic device contribute to the environment destruction.

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
my decision making and how to turn words into action.

19. If given a chance, do you want to see your future?
yeap no?? hmm.. i think it is no.

20. what r u going to do after this?
heading to social science tutorials!!!! 10 more minutes!

The Real Meaning

today is saturday and i attended my first Malaysian studies class. it was quite fun though. but i wasn't feeling really comfortable maybe because we sat for too long?? my muscle aches and all. but it seems that everyone is feeling comfortable and can easily fall asleep. but after a few hours of lecture, everyone starting to feel restless and started talking. ... we went for our brunch at around 11.45 am. me and a friend decided to take the short cut by climbing the hill to the SA building where the cafeteria is located. we climbed like a monkey. and the security guard saw us ..i think. but he din say anything. so i guess this act is not prohibited. i thought they will be mixed rice as usual but surprisingly, there is saturday special it seems. there are various kinds of food like spaggetti, chicken chop, cantonese yee mee, hokkien mee, sweet and sour fish with rice, etc. i ate the sweet and sour fish with ice. it tasted not bad. but wow the rice was too much for me. i cant believe my fren can finish the rice. i really cant finish it so i left abit of the rice behind. sorry for wasting!
so after eating , me and my frens slide down the hill coz it was really steep. this time we brought another member along. haha... it was funny! ^^
and so we went back to continue our long lecture. i got my first assignment today. DO MY BEST! HWAiTING! Phew! we divided into groups too. later in the evening, after class dismisses, i went home!! yeah--------hoo!! can go back. for me it seems like ages since i last go back. i feel bad for having to leave my dog. i feel guilty. for having my mum to take care of them. umm... i dont know..
i told my mom about my feelings just now. and she said i just need to enjoy myself and don't take things too seriouly. just enjoy my frens, enjoy my studies, enjoy the games and that's all. dont need to think too much.

JUST CHILL! ^^

CHEERIO.

right -left?

today i have intro to maths. the lecturer is a part time left handed lecturer. he started with a joke which i had forgotten what actually is it about. i am currently reading manga online in a website. OURAN HIGHSCHOOL HOST CLUB. it is a nice manga to read . kinda nice , funny and romantic. ehehe....
okay continue about maths classes. out of a sudden, he asked 'who is left handed here?' so i put up my hand and he saw me. actually there is a guy who is left handed as well, but i have no idea whether he put up his hand or not. firstly, he asked me whether i know what is so special about being left-handed. well, as usual, i said i don't know. but the answer he gave me was predictable coz i had heard it before but i don't think it is very true. he said that left-handed peepz are the smartest people in the world. and there goes some groaning sound in the class.... (groan..) lolz. i also disagree with that actually. because first of all, i am NOT smart. definitely not the smartest people. so i guess that's it. okay. continue.. so after the groaning and disagreement, this lecturer said the disadvantage. well.. it seems that left-handed people has a short life. some people started to laugh. i don't exactly know why is it funny.. i just think it is humiliating. but i also laugh along. as to be open-minded konon nyer la... a business student should be open-minded ryte??! and so he said better practice with out right hand as well. the good point is i actually can write with my right hand also. i wanted to say that to him but i just kept that to myself.
realy what... i write only with my left hand but i hold the racquet with my right! so i think i am balanced?? haha..that 's good. and overall, i think my right hand is stronger. ahaha
about this new university, everyone seems to be in groups and chatting comfortably... i don't wana feel this way but i feel distant. i don't know. everyone here seems to be not quiet. they are open minded. Maybe that 's just the way i am. maybe i am not quite a chatter. but sometimes i talk alot. especially at home. sobs... what am i actually?? i mean what is MYSELF?? be myself?? how?? i am like this like that. it depends on the situation or surrounding. be with the flow? okay.
^^
well, i have here people saying the four letter word and it is common here and when i hear it, it just make me SICK! my stomach aches when i hear it. i jsut dont what am i thinking now. maybe coz i have lotsa free time now.. and i think too much. ...

cheerio. and i love my family and friends.^^

feeling better..

today i am feeling happy and better. i am able to talk and ask question to my friends and be myself. i also dun feel so akward towards my housemates anymore. but i dunu whether they will still stay in the same apartment after their holidays. i dont think so. and maybe if there's a place, i'll be shifting to a single room. mostly everyone would like a single room because there's more privacy i guess. today's lecture was introduction to business. i am understanding little by little. that's the way its gona be.. since i am not from art stream and learned a little only about business. um.. maybe i can ask my dad about any further questions.oh well.
i ate 2 times today. in the morning i drank milo with biscuits, afternoon ate chicken rice ( fortunately, it tasted quite okay.eventhough i regretted choosing drumstick which is much expensive..) , and just now for dinner i ate claypot yee mee. what man! saturday got class??
malaysian studies... it seems. my housemate said it is boring. coz it is kinda like sejarah in highschool where we learn about malacca and stuffs like that. it is only for 6 weeks BUT it is from 9 to 4 pm man... what is this... aihz! tomoro 's timetable is quite packed, and i think lectures will be until 4 pm. tomoro will be using the computer lab for IT lectures! i wonder will it be fun. and what will we learn in IT lectures. i'll know tomoro.... it is mysterious....
and it seems that we'll have to do presentations during business classes. MAN! i dislike presentation. some more must do with power point and will be divided into groups. okay okay. BE POSITIVE! that's my goal ryte?? okay SAYA BOLEH SAYA BOLEH!! haha...

have a nice day!! ^^

cheerio.
and i love and miss you guys!!! muaks... hope u miss me too.

Free Day!

today was supposed to have tutorials but it was cancelled because this is the the first week. so NO tutorial the whole week for this week. I am now in the computer lab AGAIN to online. i can't believe i can online the whole day. but sooner or later i'll be bored coz i do not know which website to go anymore. this is because i am using the uni's computer and there are some websites which is blocked. i wanted to go to imeem but i think there is something wrong. oh ya ! i remember. it is under construction. okay no probs then. erm..oh well, i guess it is going to rain later. although i cant see what is happening outside, i can hear the thunder. my mum called me today and i guess she is coming tomoro!!
Honestly, i miss chinese food!! my favourite. i love chinese food. although here got rice also but it is different.
i ate roti onion .haha they called it onion here. i guess they afraid the non-malysians don't understand if they wrote in malay! i bet they wouldn't
i am feeling hungry now.and i kept on thinking about someone today. man! what is happening??! HAHA... weird.
i am chatting now!!!!with my friend!!! cool!!! i can chat.

First day in uni!

okay! today is the first day of uni and there is already a english test first thing in the morning. what is happening!! oh well, today is quite a long day. the english test lasted for 2 hours. the first part consist of a few reading passage and we are required to answer the following questions. the second part is writting an essay! What is this man! well, i tried my best man. i will work harder!
after that there is social science lecture. the lecturer is a funny guy. i think its better not to write it here because i am using the computer in the computer lab in uni. afraid they might have recording devices in this pc to record whatever i wrote.
ok, later that evening, there is this ice breaking session. in this session there is a few games for us foundation students who is still new to get involve and mix around. and the last game was a treasure hunt which they called it 'Nottingham hunt'. it was real tiring. and although it is fun, i feel like i am not friendly enough. i don't know if anyone think badly of me today or not. i hope not. who cares! i make quite alot of friends here but not a close one yet. during this hunt, we run here and there the whole campus! to make it worst, it was raining and one of the station was in the middle of the uni park and the senior was waiting under a plant under the rain. and my group all have to run under the rain. we were all wet. we were required to find something under the rain! good news! i found the thing they were looking for.that was great! haha.. i kind of heard someone talk about me although i hope thet are not talking about me. i bet it is something nasty. i am so sensitive about this kind of things you know. akaka! i hope to forget this incident as soon as possible! must be open minded because im in a university now and i cant afford to be pessimistic. but change gradually. i only ate during lunchtime. dunu why although hungry, i din eat much.
after nottingham hun and the prize giving ceremony, i went home and i called my mom. for a while later my sis called! great to hear from them! i decided to come to the computer lab although it is already 1o15 pm. i was kinda scare walking here alone though coz i never walk alone before at night. but when i reached here, there is quite a number of students playing computer. this room itself has already 103 computers! so i become more relax. tomoro there isn't any classes because tutorial is cancelled. wonder what i will do tomoro. ^^

gambateh! ^0^

First Time in 55 years!

surprisingly, today, my dad dyed his hair!! it is somehow his first time dying his hair in 55 yrs!
now , his whole head is filled with black , shiny hair! it really looked nice on him. i bet he is not used to it coz he said it was too dark. but he'll we get use to it somehow.. ^^ cool!
tomoro i'll be goin to stay in the hostel and uni life will be starting soon. i wonder how well will i be able to adapt to this new environment. will i have close buddies? will i be more independent??
LEARN FROM MISTAKES. BE BRAVE! HWAITING!
i've made a few friends though. hehe.. it's nice! yesterday was my induction day. i was alone after the induction was finish. i felt kinda scare and lost. and honestly, it was a weird feeling to be wandering alone in a such a new place. overall, i am not used to doing things myself. maybe because i was to dependent on my family and friends before this. well, i will be independent somehow. and this is just the beginning. learn from experience! cool... ^^

emotions

I feel all these emotions everyday.
happy, sad, angry, frustrated, lucky, weird etc.
Today i realised something about myself.
i felt angry when people don't tell me the way im doing things is actually wrong. i dislike it when i did something only they tell me it is wrong or i shud do this/that. why don't they tell me earlier? Maybe they want me to experience it myself so that i can learn by mistake. but it is just frustrating. i feel like i cant do anything right. and like i don't know anyting.
Sometimes i feel fake. like i am just acting or something. i don't who is the real me. sometimes i'm like this sometimes i'm like that. well, i guess itz normal during this growing up stage. i can do it!! be normal. haha.. =]
okay, tomoro is registration. and everything will go smoothly!

Good Luck My Friends!

Today i went to Midvelley with my friends! we went there by train! it was fun and memorable. bought some stuffs and walk around and around, ate ice cream. and there was this fortune telling machine at one corner. my friends decided to try it out. so she put 2 20 cents coin into it. and place her palm in it. a few minutes later, a piece of paper drop into the compartment there. thn suddenly, another piece of paper with diff fortune drop in the compartment. lol. something wrong with this machine,anyway, we were just checkin it out.i feel very lucky to have so many good friends around me. all are very helpful and optimistic. i am very thankful to you all! it is great knowing all of you and i will be a better person because of this. wish you guys all the best in your studies and in life!!! Love you all!!!! muaks!!

finally

i got my p liceense. i cant imagine myself driving. i can do it!!
today i bought some things again. i felt bad because nowadays i keep buying stuffs. i am sorry mum!! haha.. i took my comp to repair. hopefully it will be okay soon.
tomoro i am goin somewhere with my frens. itz cool. haha! i dunu wat am i writting now , in this moment. suddenly all the short form just come out. looks funny huh?!!
i admit that i am self conscious. i duwana be. i wana be comfortable with myself. i duwana always think wat others will think.i just want to be myself. but actually most of the time i am myself. but sometimes i feel REALLY self conscious. and i cant be myself. i MUST be myself. okay!
gambateh!!!

shopping

today i went to damansara, ikano and ikea. bought some stuffs, and ate alot. getting ready for uni. i dunu wat to write nowadays. i dunu why. maybe i dun have the mood to write.
i just feel very sad now... i always asked question to them but they dun seems to ans me. i feel very sad. as though they din hear me. am i talking to soft?? i am very scare.this is what i am feeling ryte now.

too bad...

Just now i ask my dad about volunteering in the Conservation of Humpback Turtles. He did not approved it. I asked him why....??He said it is very dangerous and got lots of mosquitoes.
And so he ask me why got lotsa mosquitoes oso i want to go. i said because it is a cool thing to do. and sumore i really like to do somethings like that! i really hope to get involve with sumting like that. i dun care whether its day or night, i just like doing this kind of stuffs. my mum said next time still got chance. but i am afraid i don't have time next time. He also say that i am too young to do this kind of stuffs. i don't think so. i think this is the right time. yaya.. i knoe itz for my own good.

maybe i will become a member of spca. haha.. seriously. member of spca. sometime around this year.

yeah-------------hoo!!!

at last i am qualified to drive! this is a good news. one goal achieved! there are other goals to accomplish though. i havent ask my dad about the volunteering thingi yet. but i 'll ask soon.i bet he is gona ask tonnes of ques as usual. -_-"
uni life is gona start soon for me. wow.. as usual, it seems so fast. kinda scare but excited.

Just You

well, actually my title today is based on the song i am listening right now by super junior-k.r.y.
which stands for Kyu Hyun, Ryeo Wook, and Ye Sung. it is a nice song. love it.
yeah-hoo!! i received another email i've been waiting for!so happy . .. okay, today i went for extra lessons in driving class, and later i went to eat sushi! yummy!!~
i checked the calender just now and realised that apr 17 is on a thursday! i tot it should be on the friday. tomoro is driving test! wish me luck^^

Gloomy day

Today it started raining earlier than usual. Around 1 sumthing it started raining and it lasted a few hours and until evening it was gloomy then a slight sunshine.
oh well, today i listed the things i wanted to buy and bring to college. and chatted with one of my buddy through sms. We talk about Dong Bang Shin Ki and the stuffs we want to buy. Itz great!
Do you ever feel like you actually duwan to do something but then others ask you to do it especially the elderly and you have to do it? well, i had experience a lot of times with this. But strange enough, on around this time, i mean now that i realised it is actually very hard to do it. it really is very hard...
But well, i am getting over it! i won't be upset for too long! you bet!
Okay, my driving test in on thurs and tomoro i am goin to xtra lessons with one of my buddy!
I must be strong and independant.
my sister said i must be more like a college student and don't always say 'i don't know'.
yeap, i admit that i always say 'i don't know'. and to be honest, i really don't like that phrase either. but it just come naturally to me. Maybe because i said it too frequently.
but it can save me in some situation i'm in. lolz.
one of my buddy always say 'JUST CHILL. DON'T TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY'. and i totally agree on that. its hard to do it but that will be my goal to reach. THANK YOU!

Volunteering.

Last week i read the Green Heart magazine from WWF and something caught my eyes. The word '.. need volunteer for the Conservation of Hawksbill Turtle in Malacca'. I decided to be a volunteer and gain experience in volunteering myself in this conservation. i think it would be interesting.
i have never done this before in my entire life!
well, i asked my mom and she asked me to go ahead. so i emailed them and got a reply a few days later! I am so excited. i haven't confirm the actual date yet though because i still need to inform my dad about my plan. it will be around july or august . wow! ^^


my dad said i talk more than taking things into action. i hope to do more actions than talk only. i always say 'yes,yes, yes..' but i didn't do it at last. i hate it. =[ i don't know whats wrong with me. i always forget and at last ppl will think i am not trustworthy. sad.. but it is true that i always broke my promise. I AM SORRY! i hope to improve myself. um.. where should i start?

Hesitation

well, i always in a dilemma because i don't know how to make decision. i want to it but i don't want to do it. um...

i want to do it because i scare the person will get hurt and what others think of me. but i actually don't feel like doing it lo. should i follow my heart or do what i feel is right?

i did this a few times already. but why when everytime when i need to do it again, i'll have to think so much again? why can't i just do it again since i've done it so many times? hesitation occurs again. i don't understand. maybe it's because i chose the comfort zone to be at home and do the things i want. oh well, i guess i like to be comfortable whenever and wherever i am!

Lee Ni's blog is finally set up.

Okay! Finally i set up a blog. I can now try to blog here! ^^